Danika and Finn,
My loves! Today I am 14 weeks pregnant with your brother or sister. And I am so excited for you to meet him or her! Danika, I cannot tell you how you make my heart happy with how much you love this little baby already. You are such a caring soul, so gentle and kind. You will make a fantastic mommy one day. Finn, my boy, the excitement you feel for babies is intoxicating. Your little giggle can brighten anyone's day. I can't wait for you to dote on your little bro or sis.
I want to apologize to you. I know I have issues in my head that I cannot fix while I am pregnant. I have anger and anxiety, and unfortunately I cannot take medicine right now. I yell at you, i destroy your little spirits, and I crush you. You try so hard to be the best kids in the world, and its never good enough. Except it is. I just don't know how to control myself right now. And I am so, so so sorry.
I love you two more than anything in the world. You are my heart and soul. i am so proud of the people you are and will become. Please know that though i yell a lot, too much, I adore you two and love everything about you. Your smiles light up my life, your hugs make my day worthwhile. I love you to the end of the earth.
Love forever, Momma
I am grateful ...
* for 2 kids who love me unconditionally
* for the gift of hearing my kids laughter all day every day
* the beauty you find in every day items
